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Dear you,

I am angry because I’m not some big great love that you had. that there was someone before me whom I know you really truly love. and it hurts me knowing that. and I’m angry because after 2 years, I’m still not 100% over you but you have moved on from your feelings and whatever we had. 

I’m sorry that I said I dont wanna talk to you anymore. but that’s the truth. I forgive you. but I still have a soft spot for you. sometimes I think to myself, doesn’t he love me anymore?

I hope that we will both find someone who will love us deeper and fiercer and make us forget our wounds because we deserve it. you deserve it. 

Thank you for loving me and supporting me in the shadows all this while. I love you. 

2013 plans

I hope that come July, I will become a full-fledged art instructor and teach art at more schools. Definitely enjoying myself as an assistant now.. love teaching kids. SO hard to discipline though. 
I still want to continue doing freelance graphic design! Boss is sending me more and more projects! Excited to expand my portfolio and experience. 
Its fun to work at 3 places: teaching art, doing design and giving tuition every sunday. 

I take 2013-2014 as like ‘gap years’ where I gain experience and learn more about myself! Gonna take things slow. Family pushing me to be a teacher but I’m skeptical about it. Mainly because I think that I might be a better teacher in my later years when I have experienced life more fully? Just my two cents.

I will slowly plan to be more independent and take better care of myself and be stronger spiritually.

You know how sometimes people put up walls so high because they’ve been hurt before.

What if you are the antagonist who was causing all the hurt

While I do love the convenience and ease of e-books, it definitely cannot be compared to the addiction of reading from an actual book. There is no way, I feel, we can romanticize digitalized words on the screen.

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If you see Allah, Mighty and Magnificent, holding back this world from you, frequently trying you with adversity and tribulation, know that you hold a great status with Him. Know that He is dealing with you as He does with His awliya’ [friends] and chosen elite, and is watching over you, have you not heard His saying, “So wait steadfastly for the judgment of your Lord—you are certainly before Our eyes.” [At-Tur 52:48]
Imam Ghazali

and all I ever thought about
the teenage angst welling up inside
my questionable existence
the omnipresent divine presence
and what was going through his mind
when he looked straight into my soul

My nephew is such a cutiepie :) View high resolution

My nephew is such a cutiepie :)

If you’re doing things for the reward, you should re-evaluate your intentions.

Ookami Kodomo no Ame to Yuki Just finished watching this anime. Make sure to have a box of Kleenex by your side as the story progresses as it can definitely stir up dormant emotions you might not have felt in a long time. This family-oriented, slice-of-life anime tells the story of a university student, Hana who fell in love with a werewolf and how she brought up their children (Ame and Yuki, which means rain and snow in Japanese) after his unforeseen death. As Ame and Yuki grows older, they have to reconcile with their identities as a wolf and human. Ultimately, each chose a path of their own to live and made Hana proud of them and satisfied knowing that she raised them both well. Runtime: 117 minRating: 8/10Seiyu: Aoi Miyazaki, Takao Osawa, Haru Kuroki, Yukito Nishii, Momoka Ono, Amon Kabe  View high resolution

Ookami Kodomo no Ame to Yuki

Just finished watching this anime. Make sure to have a box of Kleenex by your side as the story progresses as it can definitely stir up dormant emotions you might not have felt in a long time. 
This family-oriented, slice-of-life anime tells the story of a university student, Hana who fell in love with a werewolf and how she brought up their children (Ame and Yuki, which means rain and snow in Japanese) after his unforeseen death. As Ame and Yuki grows older, they have to reconcile with their identities as a wolf and human. Ultimately, each chose a path of their own to live and made Hana proud of them and satisfied knowing that she raised them both well.

Runtime: 117 min
Rating: 8/10
Seiyu: Aoi Miyazaki, Takao Osawa, Haru Kuroki, Yukito Nishii, Momoka Ono, Amon Kabe 

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Wahai pemuda-pemuda!

Jadikanlah diri kamu itu pemuda yang berhati suci dan mulia.

Pemuda yang terpuji dan bercita.

Pemuda yang sabar dan tahan menderita.

Pemuda yang bersemangat kebal dan waja.

Pemuda yang keras hati dan keras kemahuan.

Pemuda yang sanggup bekerja dan berkorban.

Pemuda yang berani kerana benar.

Pemuda yang tetap-tetap hati dan fikiran.

Pemuda yang tak kenal mundur berganjak walau setapak.

Pemuda yang mara menuju keadilan dan kebenaran.

Pemuda yang menaruh sepenuh-penuh keinsafan.

Pemuda yang berguna bagi manusia and agama.

Dan jadikanlah cinta kamu itu sebenar-benarnya cinta yang berapi-api kasihkan manusia dan agama.

[Suara Rakyat, Mei 1946]

seriously, if I have a friend called Rabiatul Adawiyah, I wouldn’t stop singing the song to her

I think ‘just be yourself’ is a horrible advice to give someone. Why will someone ask for advice if they dont have a problem with themselves in the first place?