Wow, I’ve been on tumblr for 4 long years ^_^” practically half of my teenage life is spent here, heheh
I dont usually do this.. but please spare a dua for my mother’s health. She is 44 and has minor diabetes and recently we got to know that she is pregnant. She is worried and scared for her health and the baby’s. I love her too much to see her suffer from her phobia of needles due to the daily insulin jabs and blood sugar level tests :’(
May Allah ease everyones’ affairs.
I am happy. I get to do a job which I love.. I have picked up a new hobby and I have been insanely passionate ever since.. I get to meet the people who matters most so frequently that it feels like a routine of warmth and fondness.
but I feel that slight emptiness. the small black hole that devours. and I know what it is.
I need time to recuperate my iman.
Art piece I did requested by a friend, inspired by zentangles and Indian art :)
An art piece I finished last night :)
He said: “I only complain of my grief and sorrow to Allah, and I know from Allah that which you know not.– AlQuran 12:86
gonna watch One Piece from season 1 episode 1! can’t believe its running til now!
I am angry because I’m not some big great love that you had. that there was someone before me whom I know you really truly love. and it hurts me knowing that. and I’m angry because after 2 years, I’m still not 100% over you but you have moved on from your feelings and whatever we had.
I’m sorry that I said I dont wanna talk to you anymore. but that’s the truth. I forgive you. but I still have a soft spot for you. sometimes I think to myself, doesn’t he love me anymore?
I hope that we will both find someone who will love us deeper and fiercer and make us forget our wounds because we deserve it. you deserve it.
Thank you for loving me and supporting me in the shadows all this while. I love you.
I hope that come July, I will become a full-fledged art instructor and teach art at more schools. Definitely enjoying myself as an assistant now.. love teaching kids. SO hard to discipline though.
I still want to continue doing freelance graphic design! Boss is sending me more and more projects! Excited to expand my portfolio and experience.
Its fun to work at 3 places: teaching art, doing design and giving tuition every sunday.
I take 2013-2014 as like ‘gap years’ where I gain experience and learn more about myself! Gonna take things slow. Family pushing me to be a teacher but I’m skeptical about it. Mainly because I think that I might be a better teacher in my later years when I have experienced life more fully? Just my two cents.
I will slowly plan to be more independent and take better care of myself and be stronger spiritually.
You know how sometimes people put up walls so high because they’ve been hurt before.
What if you are the antagonist who was causing all the hurt
While I do love the convenience and ease of e-books, it definitely cannot be compared to the addiction of reading from an actual book. There is no way, I feel, we can romanticize digitalized words on the screen.
If you see Allah, Mighty and Magnificent, holding back this world from you, frequently trying you with adversity and tribulation, know that you hold a great status with Him. Know that He is dealing with you as He does with His awliya’ [friends] and chosen elite, and is watching over you, have you not heard His saying, “So wait steadfastly for the judgment of your Lord—you are certainly before Our eyes.” [At-Tur 52:48]– Imam Ghazali
and all I ever thought about
the teenage angst welling up inside
my questionable existence
the omnipresent divine presence
and what was going through his mind
when he looked straight into my soul