I had a terrible morning. As i was making my way back from the toilet, one of my colleagues, who was a muslimah, shouted ‘Assalamualaikum!’ and gave me this huge smile. I forgot to give her my salam today because my mind was too engrossed with work.

I said, “Walaykumsalam.” and smiled back. When I sat down at my office, I thought about it and cried. A simple salam is like a dua. Peace. Something I needed so much right now. Allahuma Ameen. I resumed my day feeling a bit better.

There are many intricacies I notice these few days. I like it that I dont have anyone close at work. Its a blessing somehow.  

Mufti Menk and Abdulbary Yahya are coming to Singapore for a series of lectures :’) i am so honoured to be designing the banner for the programs

I am not the same person that you know

I have changed. and my heart has changed. 
But maybe you wont see beyond my smile.

I should stop disappointing others and myself.　

Friends, do me a favour. If I do something to make you angry, please dont give me the silent treatment. I hate it, you hate it. Things aren’t going to get better.
and if you truly are my friend, you will know how it will stress me up and eat me inside. 　 

nonchalante:

We are a creature of habit. So we tend to sin the same sin over again. Even after sincere repentance.

But Allaah is the Oft Merciful, Most Kind. Repent as much as you sin. Keep repenting. Keep intending not to sin. Keep turning your face toward Allaah, seeking His pleasure. We are a creature of habit. We tend to sin the same sin over again. But we should be able to sincerely repent over and over again. 

I knew this will happen. I knew it. So much drama. I’m sorry im not used to refraining myself from ‘mixing’ with the opposite gender. This is enough, khallas. So much fitnah. May I one day will be able to do the right things. ameen.

I know you’re reading this.

when you tell me that you still love me, i felt like bursting with joy.

but when you told me to move on…
I tried. I did try for the last 10 months.
 

and I hated you. 
but it is hard to stop loving you. 

Introspection

Humans baffle me. Our humanity is like at the opposite ends of a spectrum. Our unjustness breeds so much evil that sometimes we forsake the lives of others to satisfy our conscience. Our goodness is light a candle in the dark, a solitary light that brings guidance to others.

It depresses me that this evil exist. But there is always the good to cancel out the evil. Like yin and yang, the two extremes must co-exist. 

Do you guys know what good stress is?
Its when you have a fat gargantuan pile of things to do—work and freelance work.

but you enjoy and relish every single moment of doing it.